don’t worry, i don’t see it as an insult! it’s a strange (but mostly good) feeling, to not know someone yet still value their approval.
and yeah, man, a small part of me wants to go through all that old stuff i used to post and delete all the shitty things i did/said. but, after i stop cringing at the memory, i tell myself that it’s a good reminder… a reminder that i owe a lot to the people who reached out to me when they had no obligation to, who forced me to reassess my beliefs, who didn’t take my crap. a reminder that people can change their minds, that people can grow up (if they’re willing to). i can’t let myself fall back on excuses the way i used to, so confronting how i used to be and not ignoring it… keeps me grounded, i guess.
in regards to your question- i think the past version of myself would experience a lot of confusion to see me now. but i also think a part of me knew that what the church was doing, in forbidding two people from loving one another fully or in forbidding people from physically realizing their unique identities, felt fundamentally wrong. like, i trust my instinct for the most part… even if i come off as neutral sometimes, since it’s hard for me to take a side. it’s an annoying weakness of mine, where i sit on the fence and see the merit in both sides of an argument.
i’m working on it though. i still need to be better if i’m going to use my influence properly, i’m still learning. but it’s nothing compared to the battle that the MOGAI community continuously fights.
(thanks, ur message was actually nice to receive c:)
i did link it on my blog actually! it’s on this post, with sketches of Harry and Ginny. that song is on my hinny playlist bc it always reminds me of them after the war. <3
aw, i’m sorry you had a bad day, anon. here’s some young royai from my drafts??
chin up, buttercup. i know school can suck really bad, but you can channel these two and their ~can-do attitudes~ to get through it.
working on cleaning those up to be prints! c:
aww oh my goodness, thank you! what a wonderful way to put it. uvu
i’ll do what i can! those particular pieces you mentioned are pretty old so i only have low quality images of them. i should warn you that they won’t be too… sharp, when printed on a pillow or a t-shirt.
i’ll definitely put more recent pjo stuff up though!
have you seen all the harry potter stuff i’ve been drawing lately?
the polite answer is no, i don’t think so. most of the work i post on my blog is done for myself, which means you can see that i go through phases. so it’s not that i like one thing more, but that my focus has shifted.
if i were getting paid to, i would draw percy jackson on the regular. but that’s not my job, so i’d rather do it when the inspiration hits me.
OMG i’ll make that available! thank you!!
no it’s ok! i’m actually fixing that today haha. i noticed as i was editing some of the products. thank you!
heheh that’s kinda cute
and well, sorry to tell you this, but it’s all about motivation and work ethic. i know you can do it if you sit down and pick a project to finish! it doesn’t have to be in one sitting, give yourself an hour every day to work on ONE project until it’s all done. only that one.
it’ll be very rewarding in the end, i promise. then you can move on to the next one.
i learned at university, that sometimes you gotta work without inspiration when you’ve got a deadline. so i’m no stranger to forcing yourself into finishing a project. the only real difficult part is getting to work, then everything just flows once you make yourself start it again.